how i just wish...

have you ever wished that you could be that small kid that you once were?...the kid that thinks everything is beautiful...a time before you even knew the meaning of sadness....or anger..or even the awkward feeling that could occur between two people?

well,i certainly do miss it..the times where i could just sit with my dad and just blabber about anything in the world...sigh...oh what a time that was..

i am pretty sure that many of you have seen scenarios like this:
Scenario 1:-
SETTING: In a kopitiam

Kid: Papa!!..i know how to eat on my own..
(smiles proudly and feeds himself/herself while alot of the rice is dropping out from the spoon)
Dad: (laughs)please please...stop..let your mummy feed you for awhile then maybe the last few bites you eat it on your own k

Scenario 2:-
Kid: Papa!!...i have an uncle..his name is Uncle Longan and i have an aunty who is Aunty Susie Chip and they both live in Singapore..they also study in a CHINESE school
Dad: Really??....(laughs hysterically)..and where are they now??
Kid: In Singapore lor...
Dad: Oh, i see...

*note:the relatives were the kid's imaginary friends:D

ya...that is how kids interact with their parents at the age of...i don't know..4 or 5??..ya

and as we grow older...we find it harder to interact (for some people..it might be different..for me..i find it harder to talk to my dad some how but with my mum..we can talk and talk..)

when i was a kid, i could sit down and blabber all kinds of things with my dad..in fact,we had secrets together that we didn't tell my mum..lol..but now..i somehow find it hard..i don't know why...we will sit at the dining table...just the both of us sometimes because my mum and my sister are out together and while eating...we would eat silently...and i can somehow also feel that the both of us are trying to pick up a suitable topic to talk on..n in the end...nothing comes up and there will be this silence that none of us really know how to pass it by and so in the end..we finish our food in that silence...

no doubt..it's normal..i am just somehow..in a reminiscing mood..i miss things with him...i somehow wish that i could interact with him more..

yes,no doubt..he might be flawed in the sense that he sometimes hurts me with his words...or even at times act rashly when he is angry...but aren't we all like that sometimes as well??...hey...my dad is only human too:D...

bottom line is that i love him so much..and how badly i wish that things could just be like what they were when i was 5 and had no care whatsoever to think about what is suitable to talk to him and what is not...i miss that carefree feeling...

hiahzzz...

p.s. don't worry...i am just..reminiscing..i am fine